have a little faith in me.

helowr. today's weather is perfect for a picnic. its breezy. i love it. ;) heh. uhm, on friday, i went ou with joee, da, xen, kent, kok, and gerald! im glad they went. because i haven seen them for quite a while. hah. oh, we met jun and ct there. with their "anti xinyi gang". except for one. he talked to me, uhm. named victor. quite a nice guy. decent. ;) i mean, im not sure if the gang liked me. because whenever i walk close them. they will start spreading away. i dont know why. sigh sigh. anyway, we watched open season. hah. quite a funny movie. but ct said its dumb. he said i would walk out the cinema after 15 minutes. i didnt. jun was supposed to watch world trade center at around four. but then, he didnt know where the "ticket holder" went. he couldn contact him. so, he accompanied me and ida for the rest of the day. we went around looking for jobs. what an amazing friend he is. he didnt complain. not even once. ah, he kept asking me to work at tgif. he is like obsessed with tgif. haha. maybe because the girl he thinks is hot works there. ahem! :D when we got bored of looking for jobs, we went yippee cup for a drink. yippee cup renovated. i dont quite like the new design. i prefer the old one. around seven something, jun cycled home under the rain. how sad. but, luckily he reached home safe.
joee told me she might be going australia on the 22nd nov if im not mistaken. sigh, just like the old times. she is gonna leave me here. :'( i dont wanna friend her! argh.
ida's gonna start working at aldo next week! congrats! haha.
p.s. you wont get fired, dont worry. ;) love ya sexy.

- teapot -

moments we had flashed in my mind, the moment i saw your face

broom brroom. i was suppose to go ou today and yesterday. butt, i couldn make it because i didnt have transport there. sigh. jun asked me to walk to his house. cause his house is near ou. i guess. wait, is that why you asked me to walk to ur house? i kinda forgotten the reason. shiet. old lady. anyway, im in kl now. in dad's office to be specific. went to imbi palace for lunch just now. yummn. neeewayy, i woke up yesterday morning. feeling depress and solemn. i wished there was this huge box filled with guys. so that, i can put my hand in it and simply just grab a guy to date so that i could forget bout the past. i cant help thinking bout him and our past. well, not all the time. but, sometimes. yeesh. wahteverr.

i dont know how to live without your love.

i dont know what are my feelings right now. im feeling rather lost, confused, and lonely? i have no idea why. its complicated.

i regret, the moment i let you go.

good night? hehe. well, i didnt plan to blog today. but, ya know since i came online. i might as well just blog. heh. aight. hhmmnn. ah. i went to school today to do the props !! things are going well. i mean, for now at least. we are doing the so-called-fruits for the stalls. we have to do quite a lot cause we have six stalls and we need about thirty for a stall? sigh. i don really like doing the fruits cause it gets my nails all dirty and black. oh well. i cant insist on not doing. im no one eh. :( oh, and we have kinda painted the "thing" for the front entrance. but the painting's kinda screwed. anyway, i hope everything goes well. ill post the pictures of the front entrance "thing" and the fruits we did soon. not today. i haven got the pictures yet. ill get em soon. tmr maybe. i gotta charge my camera.
ah, and that day. we went to ou to meet ivana. to kinda like celebrate her birhtday. im not sure if you call it celebrating. cause apparently just watched john tucker must die. thats all. then everyone gotta find transport home. one thing which i really hate going ou is that i gotta find my own transport back. its effing annoying when there are three person in my family who can drive. but not even effing one person can send me home! fuck shit. argh! it irritates me so effing much! wtv.
okay. i gotta go play o2jam. im addicted to that game. im not that good compared to ppl like sai kent, kok or whoever. but then. i just kinda love him. heh. ;)

- ur diamond - <3 lovesss.

happy birthday ivana! :)

hey. its ivana the banana's birthday tmr!! cant wait to wish her at 12 later. heh. i wanna be the first one. hehe. we planned to go for a movie on fri. cant wait. tee hee. i didnt see her for so long. i mean. not SSOOO long. long enough. the last time i saw her was during merdeka. and she was not even layaning me. cause she was busy smoking. (just joking for the not layaning me part. she layaned me. she's a good friend. i love her! ;)) sigh. why do ppl smoke anyway? is it that fun? i dont see any benefits in it. it will only make you die faster. nevermind the smoking. well, i dont know what to get her. since its her sweet sixteen. well, ill eventually think of something. aight, what happened today? hhmmn. oh yeah. finals finally over!!! yay!! that means fun fun fun!! hoorayy! but i haven been really studying anyway. so what difference does it make right? haiy. dumb me. i got like freaking low for science paper one. im so so so depressed. shits. ah,today. me, joee, karl xen and kwan kit wanted to go ou for lunch since there was nothing to do in school. but but but, when we wanted to sign the green slip. we saw ying xian and su ann being scolded by mrs chan. she was kinda like screaming at them. sigh. why cant we go back? i mean. there really werent anything to do in school. so in the end. we just left the admin and went back to class. stupid. wtv. tmr's a holiday ! double hooray! hehe. okayy. thats all for now. i guess. buhbye.

ooh. here's a birthday song for ivana <--- my darling.

happy birthday to you.
happy birtday to youuuu.
happy bbbiiirrrttthhhdaayyy to ivannnaaa.
haappppyyyy birthddaaayyy too you!

;)off.

the notebook.

well well. i haven been blogging lately. ya know, finals. heh. but today's the secong last day. yay! had acc and ict today. it was okay. i mean, although my accounts didnt imbang. but, still. im glad. aight.
um. the notebook is a tremendously sweet movie. i think its quite an old movie starring rachel mcadams and ryan gosling. they are hot. i love him. i just watched it that day. ohh. the movie is extremely lovely. i love it so so so much. its really sweet. honey. well, for those who hasnt watch it yet. you seriously should SHOULD, no no, MUST get it. it is one of the movies you gotta keep it in your um. "movie album"? heh. really. its worth it. trust me.
well, nothing much happened lately. oh, can you believe it? form four's gonna end like that. like that ---> "snap". shitzz man. im growing older. argh.
ya know life is so complicated. we gotta make decisions. and sometimes. while making them, you'll be lost. sigh. just like, after pmr, we gotta decide which stream to go to. humanity? science? what if you choose to go to science, but wont be able to score in spm. or what if you choose to go to humanity but cant be someone your parents want you to be? sigh. and how many subjects do you wanna take for spm? eight? nine? or ten? what if you take eight. you cant compete with someone who took one more extra sub? after spm. which college are you going? which course are you taking? because wtv you take will affect your future. what if the course you take now would not bring you a bright future? see. life is just so miserable. sigh.

p.s. i miss ivana. love ya sexy. <3
muackz..
- ur diamond lady -