missing you.

missing you, by first lady.

Hmmmmm hmmmmm
Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Mmm eyyy hmmm
Baby I'm missing you

Things'll never be the same without you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

ooohh God damn it I love you
Why did he did he take you away from... me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby
Ohhhh oh


<3

again, again and again.

well, its a tiring and exhausting day. gloomy. :( am really tired. i wanna sleep right this second. but i cant. im doing my poms. fuck shit. i think im staying up till 2 today. argh! 8( saddening...

your call.

heyyss. i went to ou today. like planned, da, nissy and i went to ou(well, moee didnt get to come tho). however, we didnt get to watch the movie i wanted to watch. first, we ate at ms. read. and then, we went to ms selfridge, and then WH. bought a black top from ms selfridge. i lovee it! thenn, hmmn. ah, we meet up with jun. yada yada. yippee cup, then home. well, short day. but i had fun. well, i dont rmb when's the last time i went out with my besties. really. so, spent some quality time together. im kinda tired right now.
oh, i downloaded oth season 4. ive finished watching the first part of episode one. its really depressing. the beginning of it is already that saddening. i dont wanna even think about the ending. sighss. im gonna heart ache lahh. when after i finish watching the series. shitss man. argh! youtube only has until episode six i think. so, we will have to wait for the rest. :)
tmr's three way conference. ha ha. its been three years since my mom last went for three way conference. she said its a waste of time because the teacher would tell her the same thing every year. etc. ur daughter will definitely score well in her spm if she puts in more effort. (duhh!), ur daughter needs to pay more attention in class and stop talking to her classmates that much. yada yada yada. so, my mom decided not to go for three way conference. instead, we are all going out for breakie. that includes my dad! haha. well, its not like he doesnt go out for breakie with us. but, not on sats. cause he has to go to kl for some stuff. but, tmr. we are all going together gether. so, its a good thing. heh.
owhh, viyi's bday is coming up. but im not sure if i can make it. she lives in jalan ipoh. thats like somewhere in kl. really far from my house. so, i doubt that im going. well, lots of fun im gonna be missing. :)
neways, moee's bday is coming up too. she planned to have a gathering at the curve. but, well, she is not sure yet. but, im sure it would be a blast because its her 17th bday. well, when u come to think of it. we have already been friends for approximately four to five years? gosh, time flies faster than an eagle. :p
but, we had our good and bad times. and i really appreciate the MOMENTS i had/have with her. :) love u sweetie !

i really neeed to start studying. SPM is like nine months away? gosh. i dont even wanna think about it. :/

here are some pics.








aight. thats all for today. gnitess.

singg to me, my love!

heyyysssss. haha. well. today's a much better day compared to yesterday. we got scolding from "celly" yesterday. like really really teruk. everyone in class was like really pissed at him. and, everyone was in a baddd mood yesterday. everyone, including the teachers. every teacher was pms-ing. yesterday was a really horrendous day for us all. so, today's slightly better. tee hee.
well, good news for our class! jo is participating in the solo singing event. haha! i cant wait to hear him sing. he is singing jay chou's "an jing". jo can sing, but ive never heard him sing a mandarin song. haha. really. so, well, ill cross my fingers and wish the best for him!
anyway, owhh. another good news. i got in cheer!! hooray. i didnt even audition. joee just told natalia that two old cheerleaders (referring to sharmein and meee)are back. and she was like "owh, ur back??" thats it! and we got in. just like that *snap*! muahaha! well, wtv it is. we got what we wanted. and, we definitely will commit ourselves. definitely! commitment is what we need!!!
well, i heard the other teams are really goood. but, wtv la. all we have to do is just try our best. and perform with no regrets. :)
i might go ou tmr. with da and nissy bitsy. but im not sure yet. still waiting for da's reply. i wanna go out la. im stressed and tired these days. really. sighs.
i wanna drivee! :/

with spirit and pride, together we unite!

heyyss. weell, weelll, ky's leaving to aus tmr. time passes really fast. ive only seen him twice? since he came back. and he is leaving now. i have no idea when's the next time he's coming back.:( there's blue house meeting today after school at the primary field, gawdd. i tell you, it was effing hot. really. like what ain said. we can fry eggs on our heads! and then, yada yada yada. we went to the primary school hall for cheerleading practice. haha. then went home at around 5. thought i had add math today. sadly, my mom forgotten i had class. and she was out sending my brothers for tuition. argh! i neeed to go for my tuition class. cause i neeed to catch up since im still learning the form four syllabus. argh! i neeed/have to/must score A for add math in SPM. perhaps im setting a really high goal for myself. but, i really really wish i could get straight A's. sighss.
and thenn, owhh, da plan to go ou this friday.i wanna go tooo. i wanna watch this hk movie. dont rmb the name of the movie. but, yeah. i think it's gonna be a great movie. well, we'll see about that. heh.

and, this is another "song" from jun. haha. sweet in a way. but, kinda not in another. i dont know. but, he took the initiative to actually write me one. cheers! :)

My girl Xinyi
She look so free
She look so short
Like a teapot

Round on the sides
Chubby on the cheeks
She puts a mean kick
Right to my dick

Just kidding yo
Who can do that?
Not even superman
Has a chance to fight back

What can I say
Its not balls of steel
Its Xinyi's legs
Which only reaches my heel

Im sorry
Wasnt that mean?
Want jokes that are just plain boring N clean?

Its ok its just U
U'd probably absorb it N let it all loose
Its great to know what fun it is
To torture U without a pain or bruise

Well I must say
It was fun with the rap
U surely can take all my crap

I came up with the 2nd
The 3rd must wait
SPM this year
I dont think its late!

Awh screw this shit
Why am I wasting time for
I have homework undone on my bedroom floor

So leave me alone
U've bothered me enough!
SPM draws near
Boy its gonna be tough

But theres always teapot
Short round and sprout
When she gets angry
She never pours it out

Im glad to know
There R ppl like U
1 so patient
With U its fun to clown

- ur ladayy -

as long as you love me.

heyyyysss. i woke up today at around seven thirty, i was freaking tired. i didnt wanna go to school. but i went anyway. ya know. SPM year. :/ i didnt audition for cheer today. cause natalia couldnt make it. so i guess ill audition on wed. welll, there's an opening ceremony for paramount championship tmr during assembly! that means i get to skip econs for perhaps a period? i have three periods of econs, eng and sci tmr. wtf! but wtvla. we get to chat during science anyway. so its like three free periods tmr. mr munis's like fed up of controlling us. he never succeed in doing that anyway. haha.

Dashboard Confessional Dusk & Summer Lyrics
She smiled in a big way
The way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers And she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore
In the lazy summer

And she pulled you in
And she bit your lip
And she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair
And she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than youd been before
And she told you bad things you wished you could change
In the lazy summer

And she told you laughing down to her core
So she would not cry
And she lay in your lap as she said
Nobody here can live forever
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said No one is alone the way you are alone
And you held her looser than you would’ve if you ever couldve known
Some things tie your life together
With slender threads of things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only have barely enough of her to hang on
Hang on
Hang on
Hang on

lovely song. ;) going off noww.

- diamond pot -

2007, a new year.

heyy. first time blogging in the year 2007!! well, 2007 is my last year in sri kdu. wow, when you come to think of it. im getting really old. sighs. time passes so effing fast. :/ well, spm, ahead of me. no idea how im gonna go through such a tough year. im taking tuition for my weak subjects. i really wish i could score straight A's. really. i dont know what im gonna do if i dont. siighhs. so, my resolution for a new year, NO MORE PLAYING TRUANCY!! just like what ct said. haha. well, we got to submit the form for the subjects we wanna take for SPM tmr. and im still not sure if i wanna drop art. im not confident in scoring for that. well, i mean its not that im a hundred percent confident in the other subjects. but, wtv. guess ill HAVE to decide soon. soon as in by today. arghh!
well, whats been happening in school? hmmn. ah, sports day's coming up. and, i think im joining cheerleading. the audition is tmr. i hope i can make it. owh, paramount champioship is coming up too. im incharge of two events. weell, a busy month for me. sighhss.
something's happened to my close friend lately. wtv it is, i really hope everything will be okayy soon. anyway, i love her to bits and pieces no matter what.

ps. once again, i wanna congrat my fada! haha. :)

- xinyi binyi -