we move together, hand in hand.

heyyyss, haven been blogging lately. im really busy with cheer. sports day's on friday!!! shiittt. im extremely nervous. i really hope we could win on that day. really. we practice kinda hard. nah, very hard actually. we are performing third. we performed second last year. i heard green house routine's really chun. but whatever the result is, ill just try to accept it. cause whatever is done is done right??
weeeell, i had class test before all these cheer thing came up. and, my results are like superly unsatisfying. gosh, i got like 60 over for three subjects. i should really start studying. spm's like soooon. fuck, i don even wanna think about it.
anywayy, holidays are coming tooo. ahaha. but we have to go back to school for extra classes. im okay with it, cause i doubt that ill study at home. so, going to school gives me the opportunity to revise. owh yeah, my bday too is coming in three more days. haha. almost forgotten bout that. im not really like excited bout my bday this year. i don know why. guess im reall tired. and after moee's bday, i find it kinda troublesome to celebrate. so yeah, i planned to just go out for dinner with my besties. nis and shu yen cant come though. sighss. so, i guess its gonna be just the four of us. but, im sure it'll be fun. grins. :D im more excited to get my license. i want it asap. cant wait to drive. its gonna be soooo cool. hahaha. :D
ahhh, i neeed to complete my uncompleted add math since dunno when. yeah. so, guess ill go off here. byeesss.

here are a few photos for tricia. ;) (sorry its not the one i promised - last year's cheer, but anyhow, im still black and fugly in these pics):(












and here are some pics from moee's bday. :)
























yeah, hell lots of fun we had! <3

bring me along to that lonely place of yours.

heyys. happy chinese new year everyone! haha, im with the usual habit again - blogging unconsistently. i hate it. whats the use of owning a blog? but not updating stuff? sighs. its 2 in the morning now. i was busy learning how to use photoshop. asked joee to download it for me. well, thankfully she did. but, sadly i don have a single idea how to bloody use it. sighss. i neeed to learn it asap.
welll, i cant find anything to blog actually. cny has beeen boring. so, yeah. ill just upload a few of moee's bday pics like i promised.(cant seem to upload any pics) :/ toodles.

14.02.2007

well well, i haven been blogging for quite a while. so, im gonna start from


10.02.2007.

my darling moee's bday. haha.
hhmmnn, we went to the curve for "the party". she doesnt call it a party though. she calls it "a small gathering" :/. well, i should define small in this case. her "small" is about thirty ppl? :/ sighs. well, she cant help it lahh. ya know, she has too many fwens. haha. okayy, that day, moee and me reached the curve at around seven. ate dinner with "the favourite darling" at fridays. haha, was really fun. i haven have such happiness for a while. :D thhenn, everyone came and we went to laundry, as planned. butt, yeah, there's a butt. laundry (jerk arses) wanted to check our id's because we ordered alcohol. so, yada yada yada. we celebrated in sanctuary instead. well, sanctuary isnt a bad place after all. although laundry looks better. heh. thenn, everyone was like drunk. kinda lahh. geraldine especially, she drank like WHOA! haha. she kept drinking only. haiy. then, sam. she was like high mann. her face was like superb! :D then, party party party. well, sadly i went home at around 1130 ish. fuck la, i promised everyone to go home at around 12. but, arghh! i have no idea why my dad suddenly appeared outta nowhere. gosh! really. well, wtv it is. we all had a good night. owhh, besides nis that is. cause she lost her wallet, hp, and cam. fuck the person who stole em. fuck you.

13.02.2007
well, today. haha. im busy with the booth for valentines. like, performance club is having this sales thingy for valentines. we sell chocolates, lollipops, cotton candies and helium balloons. well, its like this. uhm, we (the performance club "delivers") are gonna go around delivering chocolates, cotton candy, lollipops, and helium balloons for those who ordered for their loved ones. so, yeah. its really sweet for those who made orders and also for those who receives em. and, we are not profiting cause half of the sales, we are gonna donate em. yeah, i know we are fantastic! :D heh.
ahh, class test is finally over. i mean, it wasnt really that long. like really quickly class test 1 has passed. i skipped math though. nahh, i should say i UNINTENTIONALLY skipped math. well, thanks to aiman. i called him up the day before to ask if there was any class test on the next day. well, he told me there wasn't. and i thought, owhh since there wasnt any class test the next day, then i might as well just stay at home and study history which falls on the next next day. then the next day, athirah texted me in the morning asking if i was going to school for the math class test, and i was like wtf??! math class test?!!! and, yeah. the story goes onn.
but anyway, aiman got me a pig key chain to appologise. so, yeah. i didnt blame him anyway. im sure even if i went, i wouldn score anyway. so, wtv! :P


14.02.2007
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! i think i wont have the time to blog tmr. so, ive decided to blog for tmr. yeah, im sure everyone's excited and all cheerful on valentines day. haha. well, i haven't got a valentine since? forever. :/ so, i have no idea what couples, friends, or whoever does on that day. go out for dinner? and then? what happens? (?.?) anyway, i wish those who has a valentine an extreme HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :D
GONG XI FA CAI! chinese new year is around the corner!!! horrray. that means HOLIDAYSS ARE AROUND THE CORNER!! muahahaha. i cant wait. i dont think im going back to my hometown this year. that means lesser ang pau. :/ but, not sure yet lahh. still waiting for confirmation. i wanna go sunway lagoon on cny lahh. but, im sure there will be lots of ppl. so, sighss. doubt it.

okayy, thats all for now. i neeed to sleep. i can only upload one pic from my beloved's party. ill upload the rest soon. ;)

why do all the good things come to an end?

helloss. well, i read my last last post. the one that said im think im sleeping at two. well, apparently i slept at two thirty. yeah. i know. wow right? just for the effing pom poms. as a result, i slept the next day for the whole math period. yeah.
well, i went laudry yesterday with daa. for ct's bday party. it wasnt really a bday party. everyone was just sitting down, chatting, camwhoring and all. nothing much. it was kinda fun actually. cause i haven seen ct for a while. basically after the funeral. so, we did some catching ups. i met his gf for the first time yesterday. haha. only a word to descirbe her. emo! she was like a real emo. everyone was like chit chatting while she was only sitting at a corner emoing. daaa heard a friend of his saying she was emoing because ct didnt pick up her call. wtf?! she is hot though. honestly, without her emoness, she can be a real hot chick. really. i really dont get whats with her emo face. owh, plus, her hair was like covering her face. haha. really weird. funny in a way. grins.
anyways, i went kl with mommey today. then went ss2 to get some fruits for tmr's prayers. im damn lazy to go to school tmr. really lazy.. :(
well, gonna sleep now. its twelve. i don wanna sleep in school tmr again. :/

byess.

- xinn -

missing you.

missing you, by first lady.

Hmmmmm hmmmmm
Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Mmm eyyy hmmm
Baby I'm missing you

Things'll never be the same without you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

ooohh God damn it I love you
Why did he did he take you away from... me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby
Ohhhh oh


<3

again, again and again.

well, its a tiring and exhausting day. gloomy. :( am really tired. i wanna sleep right this second. but i cant. im doing my poms. fuck shit. i think im staying up till 2 today. argh! 8( saddening...

your call.

heyyss. i went to ou today. like planned, da, nissy and i went to ou(well, moee didnt get to come tho). however, we didnt get to watch the movie i wanted to watch. first, we ate at ms. read. and then, we went to ms selfridge, and then WH. bought a black top from ms selfridge. i lovee it! thenn, hmmn. ah, we meet up with jun. yada yada. yippee cup, then home. well, short day. but i had fun. well, i dont rmb when's the last time i went out with my besties. really. so, spent some quality time together. im kinda tired right now.
oh, i downloaded oth season 4. ive finished watching the first part of episode one. its really depressing. the beginning of it is already that saddening. i dont wanna even think about the ending. sighss. im gonna heart ache lahh. when after i finish watching the series. shitss man. argh! youtube only has until episode six i think. so, we will have to wait for the rest. :)
tmr's three way conference. ha ha. its been three years since my mom last went for three way conference. she said its a waste of time because the teacher would tell her the same thing every year. etc. ur daughter will definitely score well in her spm if she puts in more effort. (duhh!), ur daughter needs to pay more attention in class and stop talking to her classmates that much. yada yada yada. so, my mom decided not to go for three way conference. instead, we are all going out for breakie. that includes my dad! haha. well, its not like he doesnt go out for breakie with us. but, not on sats. cause he has to go to kl for some stuff. but, tmr. we are all going together gether. so, its a good thing. heh.
owhh, viyi's bday is coming up. but im not sure if i can make it. she lives in jalan ipoh. thats like somewhere in kl. really far from my house. so, i doubt that im going. well, lots of fun im gonna be missing. :)
neways, moee's bday is coming up too. she planned to have a gathering at the curve. but, well, she is not sure yet. but, im sure it would be a blast because its her 17th bday. well, when u come to think of it. we have already been friends for approximately four to five years? gosh, time flies faster than an eagle. :p
but, we had our good and bad times. and i really appreciate the MOMENTS i had/have with her. :) love u sweetie !

i really neeed to start studying. SPM is like nine months away? gosh. i dont even wanna think about it. :/

here are some pics.








aight. thats all for today. gnitess.

singg to me, my love!

heyyysssss. haha. well. today's a much better day compared to yesterday. we got scolding from "celly" yesterday. like really really teruk. everyone in class was like really pissed at him. and, everyone was in a baddd mood yesterday. everyone, including the teachers. every teacher was pms-ing. yesterday was a really horrendous day for us all. so, today's slightly better. tee hee.
well, good news for our class! jo is participating in the solo singing event. haha! i cant wait to hear him sing. he is singing jay chou's "an jing". jo can sing, but ive never heard him sing a mandarin song. haha. really. so, well, ill cross my fingers and wish the best for him!
anyway, owhh. another good news. i got in cheer!! hooray. i didnt even audition. joee just told natalia that two old cheerleaders (referring to sharmein and meee)are back. and she was like "owh, ur back??" thats it! and we got in. just like that *snap*! muahaha! well, wtv it is. we got what we wanted. and, we definitely will commit ourselves. definitely! commitment is what we need!!!
well, i heard the other teams are really goood. but, wtv la. all we have to do is just try our best. and perform with no regrets. :)
i might go ou tmr. with da and nissy bitsy. but im not sure yet. still waiting for da's reply. i wanna go out la. im stressed and tired these days. really. sighs.
i wanna drivee! :/

with spirit and pride, together we unite!

heyyss. weell, weelll, ky's leaving to aus tmr. time passes really fast. ive only seen him twice? since he came back. and he is leaving now. i have no idea when's the next time he's coming back.:( there's blue house meeting today after school at the primary field, gawdd. i tell you, it was effing hot. really. like what ain said. we can fry eggs on our heads! and then, yada yada yada. we went to the primary school hall for cheerleading practice. haha. then went home at around 5. thought i had add math today. sadly, my mom forgotten i had class. and she was out sending my brothers for tuition. argh! i neeed to go for my tuition class. cause i neeed to catch up since im still learning the form four syllabus. argh! i neeed/have to/must score A for add math in SPM. perhaps im setting a really high goal for myself. but, i really really wish i could get straight A's. sighss.
and thenn, owhh, da plan to go ou this friday.i wanna go tooo. i wanna watch this hk movie. dont rmb the name of the movie. but, yeah. i think it's gonna be a great movie. well, we'll see about that. heh.

and, this is another "song" from jun. haha. sweet in a way. but, kinda not in another. i dont know. but, he took the initiative to actually write me one. cheers! :)

My girl Xinyi
She look so free
She look so short
Like a teapot

Round on the sides
Chubby on the cheeks
She puts a mean kick
Right to my dick

Just kidding yo
Who can do that?
Not even superman
Has a chance to fight back

What can I say
Its not balls of steel
Its Xinyi's legs
Which only reaches my heel

Im sorry
Wasnt that mean?
Want jokes that are just plain boring N clean?

Its ok its just U
U'd probably absorb it N let it all loose
Its great to know what fun it is
To torture U without a pain or bruise

Well I must say
It was fun with the rap
U surely can take all my crap

I came up with the 2nd
The 3rd must wait
SPM this year
I dont think its late!

Awh screw this shit
Why am I wasting time for
I have homework undone on my bedroom floor

So leave me alone
U've bothered me enough!
SPM draws near
Boy its gonna be tough

But theres always teapot
Short round and sprout
When she gets angry
She never pours it out

Im glad to know
There R ppl like U
1 so patient
With U its fun to clown

- ur ladayy -

as long as you love me.

heyyyysss. i woke up today at around seven thirty, i was freaking tired. i didnt wanna go to school. but i went anyway. ya know. SPM year. :/ i didnt audition for cheer today. cause natalia couldnt make it. so i guess ill audition on wed. welll, there's an opening ceremony for paramount championship tmr during assembly! that means i get to skip econs for perhaps a period? i have three periods of econs, eng and sci tmr. wtf! but wtvla. we get to chat during science anyway. so its like three free periods tmr. mr munis's like fed up of controlling us. he never succeed in doing that anyway. haha.

Dashboard Confessional Dusk & Summer Lyrics
She smiled in a big way
The way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers And she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore
In the lazy summer

And she pulled you in
And she bit your lip
And she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair
And she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than youd been before
And she told you bad things you wished you could change
In the lazy summer

And she told you laughing down to her core
So she would not cry
And she lay in your lap as she said
Nobody here can live forever
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said No one is alone the way you are alone
And you held her looser than you would’ve if you ever couldve known
Some things tie your life together
With slender threads of things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But youve already lost
But youve already lost
But youve already lost
When you only have barely enough of her to hang on
Hang on
Hang on
Hang on

lovely song. ;) going off noww.

- diamond pot -

2007, a new year.

heyy. first time blogging in the year 2007!! well, 2007 is my last year in sri kdu. wow, when you come to think of it. im getting really old. sighs. time passes so effing fast. :/ well, spm, ahead of me. no idea how im gonna go through such a tough year. im taking tuition for my weak subjects. i really wish i could score straight A's. really. i dont know what im gonna do if i dont. siighhs. so, my resolution for a new year, NO MORE PLAYING TRUANCY!! just like what ct said. haha. well, we got to submit the form for the subjects we wanna take for SPM tmr. and im still not sure if i wanna drop art. im not confident in scoring for that. well, i mean its not that im a hundred percent confident in the other subjects. but, wtv. guess ill HAVE to decide soon. soon as in by today. arghh!
well, whats been happening in school? hmmn. ah, sports day's coming up. and, i think im joining cheerleading. the audition is tmr. i hope i can make it. owh, paramount champioship is coming up too. im incharge of two events. weell, a busy month for me. sighhss.
something's happened to my close friend lately. wtv it is, i really hope everything will be okayy soon. anyway, i love her to bits and pieces no matter what.

ps. once again, i wanna congrat my fada! haha. :)

- xinyi binyi -

you think you are what i need? hah! then youre wrong.

something has been bothering me lately. i realised perhaps the person you think you understand the most, can turn out to be someone unknown/unfamiliar to you. what does bestfriend indicate? someone who understands you? someone who puts your feet back on the ground when you fall? someone who mends your heart when its broken? haha. i dont know anymore. i have doubts answering those questions. i am extremely disappointed by what she has done. i know no one is perfect. but, why? why choose a guy over me? is it that hard to live without a guy? or is it just that im nothing compared to him/them? my fragile heart is broken now, who can mend it for me?

p.s. i love my BESTFRIENDS very much. (you know who you are.)

16 going 17. :D

Oozing Oozing.;) (got that from a book, its a really good book!). heh. i went for undang last sunday with ida, nis, min yong and louisa ; or otherwise known as elle . we reach at about eight ? then, went home at about two. there's only one word for the day. BORING . nis and i slept in the seminar. hah! honestly, the were apparently talking about road safety. like we should take safety precautions on the road. and whatever not. sigh. i kinda regret going for it. but, like my dear ida said. we would have to go through it no matter what. so, yeah. wtv. i just wanna drive! sigh sigh. the test is on thursday. and im not ready yet. i haven got the time to open the bloody book. haiy.
anyway, i have like three tuitions today. first, accounts (the last time i had it was, uhm. last month? :/) then, bm. then add math. right, i know im hardworking. haha. nah, its just i dont know how suddenly all my tuitions are crammed into a day. hard day for me. :)
well, something is bothering me today. and im really disappointed. i dont know what to say. disappointed and pissed are the best way to describe my feelings right now. fuck it. no, fuck ***

heloooss. i didnt blog for a few days. i couldnt. my computer got some virus shit. im think im gonna get a new one. well, something outrageous happened yesterday. i went to kl in the morning. then, around five something i went to klgcc. for bowling then gym. i brought my nike bag. then, around seven something. my mom came to pick me up. after that, my mom sent my brothers to kumon in dataran sunway. kumon is a centre which mathematics are being taught (incase you didnt know). here comes the interesting part. me, being the fuckingly retarded + dumb + stupid ass left my bag on the seat and left the car for dinner. i repeat, LEFT MY FUCKING BAG ON THE SEAT AND FUCKING LEFT THE CAR!! FOR WHAT? DINNER!!! FUUUUCCCCKKK IT! and, when i came back, the bag got stolen, and guess what's in my bag. my ipod. yes, MY IPOD!!!!!! ARGH. I AM SO FUCKINGLY PISSED OFF AT MYSELF FOR BEING FUCKINGLY RETARDED AND STUPID! GOSHHHH!!!!!!!! argh. i love my ipod. and. i love that bag. so muucch. gawd! im having a heartache now. sobss.

what it feels like to be in love?

hello bello to all! i was relieved the moment p&a nite ended! we worked so hard for it to run smoothly on that day ( 10th november 2006 ). our hard work is definitely worth it. the props were completely done on that day. none of the props had problem! im really glad and relieved. phew! NOW holidays for me are finally beginning.
yesterday, joee asked me to go ou for "step up" i really wanna watch that movie. but,i was really tired in the morning on sat. because i stood for the whole night on friday. i think for about four hours? heh. i was the usher for that night. so, i slept until about two? then my sister woke me up and told me to shower for the trip to ou. after i showered, i texted joee to see whether they were still in ou. unfortunately, joee was already on her way back. :( when i reach ou, i had to sit and wait in the car for half and hour. cause my mom couldnt find a parking spot. sigh. after that, i called xen to ask whether they were still in ou. i wanted to meet them. however, i didnt get to meet them at last. i accompanied my sister to topman to get a present for her "friend". then, i went ms selfridge, bought two blouse. i love it! hah! then, i went levis to check out their jeans. im desperate to wear skinny jeans. but, sigh. i dont have what it takes. wtv.
ah, i did my nails on friday. i didnt do extensions. joee darling did! her nails are gorgeous! heh. well, aight. thats all for today. buhbye! muackkkkss!

:)

how should i tell him im in love?

heyss. today is just like any other ordinary day. i went to school in the morning. at around 8 plus. when i reach school, i went straight to the art room. cut some undone fruits. then carried the props down to the hall. the play is going really well. especially the part where aladdin and jasmine ride on the carpet singing 'a whole new world'. awhh, really really sweet. romantismm! ;) after that, i went back home. then bla bla bla bla. and im blogging now. uhmm. thats all for now! ta ta! muacks. <3














gosh, irresistable.

night to all.

take another chance on love.

heyss. its a saturday! saturday = no school! buahahaha. i mean its not like there's teaching in school. but, i have to go to school until the 10th of nov because of p&a nite. and, going to school is not a problem. honestly, it isnt. but the thing is the "person" i got to face. seriously, its really hard. sigh. anyways. 10th of nov is next week. so i will have to bare with the "person" for a few more days. after that ~ FREEDOM!! muahahahhaha. owh, im gonna do my nails on thurs! another hoorayy! joee asked to do extension. but, its rather expensive. i think its about 150. i can buy a skirt, shirt or whatever with that amount. if i spent it on my fingers, wouldnt it be a little too much? sigh. i dont know what to do know. extensions or just normal medicure? well, i dont know yet. we'll see. lovyeess. :)


- xinn - <3

i'd like to learn to love again.

im having a fever! :( i vomitted yesterday. sigh. didnt go to school today. but have to go tmr. p & a nite is on next friday. the props are not completely done yet. well, hope ill feel better tmr. im still not feeling goood now. haiy. its late. i better get some rest.
owh, before i go. here's a poem from jun. i find it brilliant and sweet. ;)
(teapot refers to xin bin) :D

Your a little teapot
Short and sprout
Come here and pour everything out

When your feeling hot and round
Come to jun to cool your mouth

And when your lonely without a cup
Jun is here to cheer you up

But dont forget the price you pay
Jun is pricy, its best you dont stay

So when your done with life
Do just jump down the table
And crack and roll like dice
Cause when your broken and down
Jun is here, to mend you when found

really sweet of him. heh. gd night. ;)

have a little faith in me.

helowr. today's weather is perfect for a picnic. its breezy. i love it. ;) heh. uhm, on friday, i went ou with joee, da, xen, kent, kok, and gerald! im glad they went. because i haven seen them for quite a while. hah. oh, we met jun and ct there. with their "anti xinyi gang". except for one. he talked to me, uhm. named victor. quite a nice guy. decent. ;) i mean, im not sure if the gang liked me. because whenever i walk close them. they will start spreading away. i dont know why. sigh sigh. anyway, we watched open season. hah. quite a funny movie. but ct said its dumb. he said i would walk out the cinema after 15 minutes. i didnt. jun was supposed to watch world trade center at around four. but then, he didnt know where the "ticket holder" went. he couldn contact him. so, he accompanied me and ida for the rest of the day. we went around looking for jobs. what an amazing friend he is. he didnt complain. not even once. ah, he kept asking me to work at tgif. he is like obsessed with tgif. haha. maybe because the girl he thinks is hot works there. ahem! :D when we got bored of looking for jobs, we went yippee cup for a drink. yippee cup renovated. i dont quite like the new design. i prefer the old one. around seven something, jun cycled home under the rain. how sad. but, luckily he reached home safe.
joee told me she might be going australia on the 22nd nov if im not mistaken. sigh, just like the old times. she is gonna leave me here. :'( i dont wanna friend her! argh.
ida's gonna start working at aldo next week! congrats! haha.
p.s. you wont get fired, dont worry. ;) love ya sexy.

- teapot -

moments we had flashed in my mind, the moment i saw your face

broom brroom. i was suppose to go ou today and yesterday. butt, i couldn make it because i didnt have transport there. sigh. jun asked me to walk to his house. cause his house is near ou. i guess. wait, is that why you asked me to walk to ur house? i kinda forgotten the reason. shiet. old lady. anyway, im in kl now. in dad's office to be specific. went to imbi palace for lunch just now. yummn. neeewayy, i woke up yesterday morning. feeling depress and solemn. i wished there was this huge box filled with guys. so that, i can put my hand in it and simply just grab a guy to date so that i could forget bout the past. i cant help thinking bout him and our past. well, not all the time. but, sometimes. yeesh. wahteverr.